The Last Dance

The day started on a promising note with Elena signing the deeds to become the owner of my house. It was the best decision she's made so far that will in the long-term keep her safe. Damon was the first to suggest it and I couldn't think of a better way to have some control over Elena's safety. It was Elena who would be calling the shots on who received an invitation in the house, keeping unwanted vampire's out.

Elena didn't hesitate to extend an invite to me back in my home. Damon on the other hand, needed a reminder on who was making all the rules. Elena asked him one last time did he understand the terms of our agreement. He wasn't thrilled at first when she told him it was her way or the highway. Lucky for him, he quickly came to his senses or so we thought. Damon just tends to do things the Damon way and doesn't think about the consequences of his actions.



I went to school with Elena and Bonnie when Elena insisted that she come and go as she please. I know Bonnie will always keep her safe. The one thing that worries me is the fact we have no clue how powerful Klaus' team of witches are and I'm guessing pretty powerful. They would have to be if they're protecting the oldest vampire in the history of time. Bonnie thinking she can take on an Original by herself worried me.

Hours later Elena and Bonnie came back the house to let Damon and I know Klaus had made contact by compelling one of the students. We were clueless to what the man looked like and with Katherine missing we were in the dark.

Elena put on a brave face for me this evening while she picked out a dress for the dance. She was trying her best to show me she's fearless and I know she's scared. Who could blame her when someone who is threatening to wipe-out everyone in her world she's ever loved. I held her in my arms, kissed her gently before telling her we would end Klaus tonight.

I had my own reservations on taking Elena to the dance and instead of fighting her on the matter, we headed to the dance with Damon and met up with Bonnie and Jeremy. It wasn't long before we walked in when Klaus made his first move. He compelled Dana to announce to the crowd Klaus was dedicating a song to Elena. The bastard was close and I could feel it. When Caroline and Matt walked in, I left Elena to dance with Damon while I brought Caroline up to speed on Klaus. I really didn't want her to be blindsided by not knowing. We kind of all hand blinders on when it came to Klaus.

I found Jeremy in the hallway upset and worried about both Bonnie and Elena. He told me if Bonnie used all her powers on Klaus, it could kill her and Bonnie refused to tell Elena. I had to find Elena and tell her. She needed to talk some sense into her best friend. I was left to deal with Damon who knew all along what Bonnie was planning. Every time I trust him, he screw me over. Damon didn't try to deny he lied, again. I was ready to really let him have it when we heard Jeremy. He was down the hall being assaulted by a couple of male students. They were compelled by Klaus as a distraction. I told Damon I could handle them while he went to go make sure Elena and Bonnie were okay. Jeremy was a little banged up with no permanent damage or broken bones.

When I found Elena, she told me Klaus had possessed Alaric's body. I didn't see that coming at all. None of us did and when we went to go find Bonnie, Damon told us she was using her powers to kill Klaus. We knew it would kill her. She had to be stopped, only we were too late. Bonnie fell to the ground and I knew she was dead. I didn't know how to help Elena in that moment. She was hysterical, sobbing and wanting her friend back. Damon walked in ordering me to take Elena home. We didn't need Sheriff Forbes asking questions so Damon took the next steps to dispose of Bonnie's body. I was not happy at how he handled the situation from the start. After-all Bonnie was a dear friend to us all.

I offered Elena tea as she sobbed uncontrollably while sitting in a chair by the fireplace. She was distraught. Who could blame her when she had just lost her best friend. It wasn't until Damon came home we found out Bonnie was alive. She had done a spell to make it appear she had died. I was furious with Damon for not telling us. He just refuses to keep me in the loop. I could have told Elena the truth once we were off the premises of the school. I'm getting real tired of Damon playing the hero. He needs to remember who's girlfriend he's protecting and it's not the other way around.

Just when I think we're taking two steps forward to being close brothers again, we've taken five steps back. This will not end well for neither of us.

Stefan

"Know Thy Enemy"

The day started off on a sour note. Elena called me hysterical that her dead vampire mother, Isobel had showed up at her door. Jenna answered and was stunned to find out the Alaric's not so dead wife was back in Mystic Falls. Elena tried to talk to her, making the situation worse.  I can only image what Jenna is thinking.  I told Damon he needed to call Alaric and make him aware of everything that was going on. What I really didn't need this morning was Katherine asking us not to alert Isobel she was in town or staying at our house. Any time Katherine asks a favor, it all about her and she really wanted us to believe she was on our side. Not a chance in hell either of us would buy her act. I guess she thinks I'm stupid when she keeps telling me to be smart. I'm smart enough not to trust a bitch with a smile.

I went to Elena's to talk to her about Isobel and the fact that maybe Isobel had information that could help us. She really didn't want to hear it and I can't really blame her. Why should she trust a vampire mother who turned her back on her at birth and choose to live as a vampire? John walked into Elena's room asking for us to come downstairs. He had invited Isobel in. I was just as shocked as Elena and we both were wondering what the hell was he thinking.  I asked Isobel to tell us what she knew and at the moment Elena was willing to hear her out. John claims Isobel was helping all along. I just glanced over at him, thinking did he forget he was responsible for killing all the 1864 vampires and was ready to kill Damon and I?  I guess that slipped his mind as he tried to spin this tail around and we were suppose to believe he was working to protect Elena. The man has balls, I'll give him that. John told us the word was out that a doppelganger existed. Well we kind of figured that out. Katherine lurking around town is bound to bring harm Elena's way. Elena had enough of Isobel who was asking her to leave and go to a safe-house that no vampire could enter, not even Isobel. Elena was quick to put her in her place and told her to get the hell out her house. I was so proud of her for once again, standing up and not falling for the lies of John and Isobel.



Elena and I went back to my house to discuss with Damon what Isobel had to say. He wanted Elena out of the Gilbert house and here with us. She refused so we said we would stay at her place. Again, Elena was being stubborn by informing us she didn't want to be a prisoner in her own home.  Katherine walked in the room asking to know the whereabouts of the moonstone. Damon told her that we had it hidden in a very safe hiding place.  Elena didn't say a single word. She ignored Katherine who was standing behind her pouting and whining that we were keeping secrets from her. That's laughable at best, coming from a person who has done nothing but lie to us, dating back to 1864. She walked away mad when Damon told her that we could burn her at any given moment and that just because we haven't killed her, doesn't mean we trust her. 

Hours later, Elena and I attended the ceremony at the Lockwood mansion for Elena to receive the donation for a scholarship in honor of her mother. Caroline walked up to us freaking out over Matt running out on her. He knew she was a vampire and we didn't need him telling anyone else. I was upset Caroline didn't use better judgment when she decided to tell Matt the truth and she didn't compel him afterwords. He will never understand and now he has questions on Vicki and her death. When Caroline ran off to go find Matt, I was able to calm down, knowing if she didn't deal with Matt, I would have to do it for her. Despite Caroline's flaws, I love her like a little sister.

I stood proudly as Elena went up to accept the donation for her mother's scholarship fund when John came barreling down the stairs. I ran over to him and could see he had been bitten on the neck. I scanned the room and rushed to find Elena. Right away I sensed Katherine and walked her outside. She called Damon to tell him to get over to the Lockwood mansion asap and figure out who attacked John. As soon as she hung up the phone, I shoved her into the car. Katherine thought she had me fooled. I'm not Damon, I know Katherine a mile away. She had a syringe in her other hand chalked with vervain. I didn't have enough time to react before she stabbed me with the syringe and shoved me into the bushes.

I called Damon when I was able to get up and told him Elena was missing and Katherine was to blame. We went to the nicest foreclosure in town and there was no signs of Isobel, Elena or Katherine. We did discover that Isobel had been there. Her bags were by the door.

It wasn't until later, Elena came to the house. She told me Isobel showed her the grave her parents had for her even though their wasn't a body buried. Isobel received a call telling her that her part was over and she was done. She killed herself in front of Elena. I don't know how many more family members she can handle seeing die before she has a complete meltdown. Damon brought in the deeds to the house. Once Elena signed them she would become the owner of the house and no vampire could not enter without going through Elena.

John woke up scared that Damon would kill him. I was going to let him at this point, John has caused more harm than good. I gave him plenty of chances and each time he failed us. Elena asked to speak to him alone. We went into the other room, pour a round of drinks to toast having Bonnie on our side with her powers back and no one would see it coming. Not even Klaus.

I'm guessing Elena gave John a free pass yet, again. The man is on borrowed time as far as I'm concerned. The next time he hurts Elena, he will feel the wrath of the old Stefan Salvatore.

Stefan

The House Guest

Elena looked beautiful this morning. The day starting out on a perfect note until Katherine showed up, playing her usual childish games. Damon didn't know killing Elijah would dispell the compulsion he had over Katherine, freeing her to walk out the tomb. I was hoping I'd never had to lay eyes on Katherine again and Elena wanted her gone immediately.

Of course Katherine tried to win us all over by telling us she was here to help us bring down Klaus.  I didn't buy her act for one second. I don't know what Damon was thinking, allowing her to stay in our home. I'm pretty sure she will do something that will show her true colors. It's just a matter of time. Katherine always has other motives.  I went over to the grill to see if Dr. Martin would be willing to help us along with his son, Luka. That meeting didn't go as planned. They don't trust us and were highly upset we killed Elijah with the dagger, knowing we needed it to defeat Klaus. Elijah was a threat to Elena and everyone else. We could not simply sit back and watch him go after the one's we love.

I came back to the house after my meeting. Damon was in the library reading Jonathan Gilbert's journals while Katherine was not around. Damon found the location of the house where the witch trails took place. We pretended we didn't find anything, knowing if Katherine found out, she would use it for her own devious plans.  I took the book with me, making sure Katherine would not be able to get her hot little hands on it.   While I was upstairs, I heard Katherine yell for Damon and when I ran to the basement, Katherine was in the corner with a stake in her chest and Damon was torching the room. There was some kind of witch entity in the room and Damon knew Dr. Martin had something to do with it.

By the time I made it to Dr. Martin's apartment, he was furious. His son Luka was burnt to a crisp on the floor and the next thing I remembered was my brain bursting from the spell Dr. Martin put on me before he bolted out the door. He had a picture of Elena on the floor. I didn't waste time calling Damon for help. Dr. Martin was now after Elena and we needed to get to her before he did. Damon called me from the car to let me know Katherine was with him and she had a plan to trick Dr. Martin.

I found Katherine and Damon outside the grill. Damon had already found Elena and had her in his car. Katherine and I walked in, pretending she was Elena and saw Dr. Martin destroying the Grill. Katherine who was now acting as Elena tried to plead with him to stop. It became clear he was in no mood to talk at that point. The only thing he wanted was Elena. We bolted from the restaurant and headed back to Elena's house. We were pretty sure Dr. Martin would follow.  When we walked into the house we found Bonnie and Jeremy in the living room. They were clueless to what was going on. Katherine went upstairs to Elena's bathroom and as soon as I heard her tearing into Dr. Martin, Bonnie and I ran up the stairs. Dr. Martin was dead.

Katherine kept her word for once. To keep Elena safe and for that I had to thank her. Elena on the other hand was still furious that she was around at all. The exchange between them was less than friendly but for now, everyone is safe.

We still need to prepare for the arrival of Klaus. To fight an original that strong is going to take more than a couple of drops of blood a day. I'm going to need to start increasing my dose and sip larger amounts of vervain. I know all of this will not be enough to kill someone who is over a thousand years old. I just refuse to sit by and do nothing. Damon is already strong and he is also sipping vervain. The two of us together along with Bonnie will have to pull together in order to bring down Klaus for good.

Stefan

The Dinner Party

I don’t deny I woke up still very upset with Elena for wanting to martyr herself to Klaus. I thought she would be smart enough to know that she had plenty of people in her corner that refused to let anyone harm her. We've all become Elena's protectors and her decision to just hand herself over to Klaus sent my mind into a tailspin. I went outside by the lake to think, clear my head and try to figure out how to change her mind. We were very distant last night. Cold to the point we didn’t touch at all. This was supposed to be a romantic getaway. With the wolves showing up, our getaway turned into a complete nightmare. Elena sat inside most of the day, reading Jonathan Gilbert’s journal. I had a feeling it was going to become a day that I would need to explain my actions of the past. Jonathan kept a lot of information about the early stages of me becoming a vampire. He knew enough about me to write it in his journal. I wasn’t surprised when Elena looked at me as if she was seeing me for the first time.



Back then I was a monster that roamed around without formal training on how to exist as a vampire. Katherine was gone, Damon was freaking out, and I was going through blood lust syndrome of the worst kind. I was so upset with the founding families that I targeted them, killing them one by one until they paid for what they had done to Katherine. Damon couldn’t handle the pressure, he left me and I was lost until I met another vampire, Lexi. It was during the war, people were hurt and that left me with bountiful amounts of blood to feed upon. Lexi could see I was all the bad parts of being a vampire. I fully didn’t understand why she was so in control of her urges and I had no control. She showed me there was another way to exist and if I was going to keep my life a secret, I would need to find something to live for. She told me love would be my salvation. I wasn’t sold at first, knowing my need to quench my thirst for blood was so powerful. With time and Lexi by my side, I discovered she was right. I miss my friend so much. A part of me is still seething with anger towards Damon for killing her. It’s taking me a long time to make peace with her passing and with Elena in my life, each day gets a little easier to cope with such a great loss.

Elena learned Jonathan had extensive research on the originals, the dagger and white oak ash that was used to kill them. It was a photo in the journal with instructions on how to properly use the weapon. When Elena told me that the demon that used the dagger on the Original would die, I ran to the phone. John gave the dagger to Damon, knowing he would die trying to kill Elijah. I wasn’t able to get a hold of Damon, so I called Alaric’s phone and I was relieved when he answered. Elena and I waited for someone to call us back and let us know that everything was okay. We found out that Alaric killed Elijah with the dagger. They took his body down to the holding chamber and all was well or so we thought. Elena went on to read the dagger cannot be removed or the death would not be permanent. By the time I called Damon, Elijah was long gone and we knew he was heading our way.

Elijah was outside the cabin door angry, vengeful and waiting on Elena to come out to talk to him. I didn’t want to let her go, sensing the danger she was putting herself in made me uneasy. Elena reminded me he couldn’t harm her without an invite in. We had a plan to rid us of Elijah for good and she was prepared to carry it out. Elena told Elijah he needed to promise not to hurt anyone, even if they hurt him in any way. He didn’t budge, his arrogance preceded him and he took his chances by calling her bluff to kill herself. Elena didn’t back down, I wanted to save her when she stabbed herself with the knife. Elijah was begging Elena to let him give her blood. She fell forward into his arms, with the dagger in her other hand and stabbed him in the heart. Elijah was finally dead. He fell to the ground as I rushed to her side, feeding her my blood and healing her stab womb. Damon came out the shadows, warning us to leave the dagger in this time. Elena grabbed her bags while Damon and I dumped the body in the trunk of the car. We drove home to the boarding house; finally Elijah was gone for good. Elena came downstairs to the holding chamber, making sure we were okay. She told us from now on there would be no more lies, she was in control and if she was going to fight, we would do things her way. Damon and I agreed. Elena needed to know everything. would be done differently. She was finally back to the confident Elena that I adore.

I explained to Damon how Lexi was the person who helped me change my demon ways, before I succumbed to them. Damon knew what she meant to me. For a brief second he looked remorseful for killing her. I didn’t say anything else, knowing words could no longer describe the hurt I felt when he took Lexi from me. Our relationship as brothers has turned that critical corner from us hating each other, to happily co-existing while agreeing to disagree. It works for us and I finally feel I have my brother that I always looked up to back. Now we need to put our heads together to help bring down Klaus for good and protect Elena no matter if we die trying.

If These Walls Could Talk

Elena and I headed to her parents cabin for a little alone time away from the madness. We talked about the future, shared a few glasses of wine and I was prepared to cook the most amazing dinner for her until we discovered her parents were on to the vampires. They had a secret room in their bedroom filled with so many weapons that Alaric would love to get his hands on. We also found another one of Jonathan Gilbert's journals. Apparently, he had a lot more to say about the town's secrets. 

I didn't get a chance to finish dinner. Let's just say the evening of quiet bliss was very short-lived.  I went outside to get more wood for the fireplace when Brady and Tyler attacked me. Tyler was clearly out of his mind. The werewolves convinced him that we had the moonstone and that the curse could be broken and they would never have to turn unless they wanted to. Only they left out the fact that Elena had to die. Tyler was shocked, confused and very conflicted on who was telling the truth.  Tyler didn't want Elena's blood on his hands, so he let me go. I ran up to the house just in time to rip Brady's heart from his chest before he put his hands on Elena. Tyler apologized to us both for his part in the wolves plan. He really has no idea the danger they are to him.  When Tyler left, I called Damon and found out the wolves attacked Alaric and him at our house. It was Elijah who saved them. He is really trying to convince us, he will keep us all safe and Elena. He has his own personal agenda for helping us and we need to figure out what his true motive are before Klaus shows up. For now, Elena is safe.  I think it's time we have a real heart to heart on our future and my bloody past.

Stefan

Keep Your Friends Close And Your Enemies Closer

Elena stopped by to see me. It’s nothing like having the woman you love in your arms. I will never do anything to lose the love we have for one another and I will die protecting her. I told Elena that I was going to contact Isobel. She wasn’t thrilled at all. I can completely understand her hesitation, knowing her mother is just like me. I hated leaving her at the house, only she wanted to stay and check up on Rose. I told her that Rose was bitten by a werewolf and her fate was to be determined.

Later when I returned to Elena’s house, I had John with me. He told me he knew all about the Sacrifice and what it took to break the curse. I told him that he needed to help us or I would have to make good on my previous threat to turn him. When Elena saw John, she was upset, wondering had I lost my mind for bringing the man she despised back to Mystic Falls. I’m willing to risk her being angry with me if it will save her from Klaus and keep her alive.

Today Caroline called me over to fill me in on Tyler finding out about Damon and I. Caroline asked me to talk to him and when I went over to the Lockwood’s, he was naturally afraid. There was no full moon to protect him and I could have easily hurt him without thinking twice about it. I told him not to trust Jules. He listened for a second and then I received a phone call that Jules was holding Caroline captive.

I forced Tyler to come with me to the woods. Jules was not getting Tyler until she freed Caroline. Leave it to Damon to come and piss off the wolves even more. He confessed he killed Mason and just when we thought we could take them since there was no full moon in sight, Jules called on her wolf pack. Damon and I fought them, killing several but it took Dr. Martin to use his mind aneurysms to bring the wolves to their knees. He said he was there to make sure that Elijah’s end of the deal was upheld because of Elena.  We left with Caroline who was crying from all the pain she was in. They tortured the poor girl. I took her home, knowing she wasn’t in any condition to be alone. Caroline tried to be brave. I knew better. Caroline is sweet, kind, and she innocent. I went to Elena and asked for her help. We called Bonnie who went with us back to Caroline’s and I surprised her with her two closest friends. It was a supportive slumber party for someone who was put through hell. I’m glad I could put a smile back on Caroline’s face. She’s become a very good friend to me and I might have to say, she’s my only friend since Lexi.

"Promises Are Made To Be Broken"

Waking up to Elena in my arms is just what I needed after spending an entire night in the tomb with Katherine. As much as I don’t want to admit it, I kind of regret the way I left Katherine. I think she had more information about Isobel and her research that would help me figure out how to break the curse of the moonstone. I couldn’t sleep last night with thoughts of Katherine stuck in my head. I hate it when she plays mind games with me and now I can’t forget the thoughts she embedded in my memory. I have no reason to feel anything for her, after what she did to me, by using me as her personal boy toy back in 1864. The close relationship I had with my brother back then was ruined by her evil, manipulative ways and it's finally starting to get back on track.

I admit I fell head over heels in love with Katherine the very first time I laid eyes on her when she arrived in Mystic Falls. She was one of the most beautiful, captivating and sexiest women I had ever encountered.  I was young and most of the girl's were very immatured but not my Katherine. She stood out from the rest and to this day, it's taken every ounce of my strength to get over her. Damon wasn't so lucky. Katherine became his obsession.  Katherine keeps accusing me of using Elena all this time as a way to feel closer to her. A claim that is simply not true. They may look alike on the outside but they’re total opposites on the inside. All the more reason why I shouldn’t have any thoughts of her, only I do.

I don't know why I told Damon about the deal Elena made with Elijah. Damon smashed a glass against the wall, staining the wall with bourbon and started to pace the floor.  I can understand why Damon is upset when he was the one who staked Elijah and now the man shows up in Mystic falls, making demands and deals. We all should be worried even with the moonstone in our hands, danger still lurks in the shadows.  Damon was quick to tell me I’m being foolish if I go along with Elijah's plan to use Elena to draw out Klaus. This is why I am sipping small amounts of blood to make me stronger. I need to be able to build up my strength, in order for me to be able to help protect Elena from what’s to come. It kills me that Damon has been able to protect Elena more than me. That’s my job. I didn’t want to argue with him over why I would go along with it nor do I agreed with Elena’s decision to trust Elijah.

Damon clued me in on everything that happened when Elijah showed up at Slater’s apartment and ripped the hearts out of two vampires who showed up to take Elena to Klaus. Damon killed Elijah. I don’t know how it is possible that he’s still alive, all I know is it makes my decision to increase my blood intake a little easier. Elena believes in me. We made promises to one another, only this is one promise I won’t be able to keep.

"HAPPY HOLIDAYS"

I'm trying to be strong for her. Elena is hiding her fear of what's to come. At least today, on Christmas, she has a smile on her face. I'm glad I get to spend this special day with her and I'm not locked in the tomb with Katherine. If only I could make my brother smile. He's going through his own pain that I don't think any amount of words will make him feel better. I will keep trying. Maybe Rose can distract him but I know Damon. He's hiding behind his pain. Maybe my present I have for him, will at least make him less grumpy. A good bottle of aged bourbon.

Merry Christmas,

STEFAN

"Hate, Lust, and Loving Doppelgangers"

It's good to be back with her. I couldn't wait to hold her, touch her skin, and taste her lips. I love this girl with all my heart. Nothing will ever change how I feel. I just question how will I be able to fight off the evil temptation that lurks around the corner, waiting for me to slip up. Let me start at the beginning.

I was trapped in the tomb earlier with the vindictive, spiteful, Katherine. She tried every dirty trick in the book to sway my love away from, Elena. You would think by now she would get the hint that it's not working. My love for Elena will never die. We have a connection that I never had with Katherine. The sight of her sickens me and when she tries to touch me, I feel nothing. Katherine played dirty by getting in my head, showing off her body in flimsy undergarments. The temptation crippled me slightly but I held my own before I got lost in lust with a woman that has no Soul. The repulsiveness is what made me remember that she's not to be trusted, ever. I tried to give her a chance to come clean and tell me what I needed to do to protect, Elena. For a split second, Katherine weakened. She told me to track down, Isobel.

I would have gotten more out of her when we heard a loud sound coming from the front of the tomb. I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me. Elijah stood at the door. I thought Damon had killed him. Apparently, he's a lot stronger than any of us anticipated. Katherine was frightened. I didn't know what Elijah showing up at the tomb was all about until he said my freedom was requested by Elena. I thought he was joking. I slowly eased out the tomb, guarded by what was to come when Elijah blocked the doorway to speak to Katherine. She was very afraid. I had no sympathy for her. Elijah said Elena made a deal with him. I didn't hesitate to look at Katherine one last time and say goodbye. She begged me to not leave her but that's exactly what I did.

Now Elena and I are back together and our love for one another is stronger than ever. I hope Damon will move on with his life.  I love my brother. I can't deny that I've always looked up to him, even with all the bad he has done, I see the good in Damon underneath it all. I want him to find the kind of love I've found with Elena, one day.  The one thing that I can't allow to happen is history repeating itself. It would damage the progress we've been making but I haven't turned a blind-eye to the fact that we're both in love with the same woman, either. I will fight for Elena until my last breath, even if I have to sacrifice my relationship with my brother.

"A Dick Move Cost Me"

Good thing I keep a small Journal in my pocket. Well, I'll get to that in a minute. The day started with Damon and I paying a visit to the tomb to talk Katherine into handing over the moonstone.  I knew she wouldn't go along with it unless we reversed the spell to get her out of the tomb. Katherine may be weak but her conniving ways and dry wit were dead on.  Our next stop was Elena's house and from the moment she opened the door, there was something different about her. We told Elena about our visit to Katherine and how Bonnie was willing to help us. Damon and I knew Elena wasn't thrilled but everything we do is to protect her. Elena told us that she didn't want our help and she wasn't willing to risk losing the people she cared about. Damon had no words, making me wonder should I be worried that he's fallen for her. I'm not oblivious to it all and I know Elena loves me and that is one thing that will never change. Our relationship has been rocky over the last few weeks with Katherine returning and the fact that the 'Original' vamps will come to capture her for Klaus. I would be lying if I didn't say I hate the distance that keeps growing between us. For a split second I didn't think Elena was going to invite us in.

Damon and I convinced Bonnie to help us retrieve the moonstone from Katherine in the tomb. Jeremy volunteered to play the hero and Damon was clearly not happy. He hates the fact that Jeremy knows  as much as he does. In a way, I agree with him.  Jeremy being involved could get him killed. We can barely protect Elena as it is and Jeremy being around could complicate matters.  To prove my point, Jeremy went to the tomb, got in, found the moonstone and in the process he wasn't able to keep Katherine down long enough before she caught him. The spiteful bitch made a meal out of him, knowing his ring would protect him.  By the time I got there her lips were stained in blood with Jeremy standing beside her with blood oozing from his neck. Bonnie tried to lift the tomb spell, thinking she had the strength to do so and failed. Katherine was about to keep feasting on Jeremy when I rush in and tossed him out the tomb. Dammit, that was a dick move.

Now here I am with Katherine, in the tomb and she's acting like she won the lottery. Katherine is ogling me and saying all kinds of flirty comments to get a rise out of me.  Just a short time ago, Damon and Elena argued outside the tomb. Damon forbid Elena from coming in after me, reminding her that she needed to be safe and he would make sure she was protected. I knew Katherine would throw that in my face by warning me it was the worst move ever, for me to make Damon promise to protect, Elena. I know the risks. I've known all along this day might come. Now, I have to stay strong enough to deal with Katherine and try to steer clear from her inviting temptations.

"Manipulative Bitch"

Today was tough on me.  It was necessary for Elena to come over to the house because Rose was able to explain to her the danger she was in better than Damon and I. I could feel the coldness coming from Elena's body.  She's not happy with any of us at the moment. I guess I can understand how she feels, knowing that ever since we met, her life has been turned upside down.

Rose told us about Klaus who is the oldest Vampire and he will come for Elena. My jaw clenched just hearing Rose say Klaus would hurt Elena. I will die protecting the woman I love and I know Damon has my back.  I couldn't tell if any of Rose words were registering with Elena who quickly got up and announced she was heading to school.  I told her I would go with her but she turned me down.  I'm having a hard time understanding how she can act this way with me, after Damon and I saved her from Elijah just yesterday.

I went on to school and ran into Caroline who told me she needed to talk.  I hesitated at first but quickly changed my mind. I promised Caroline I woud always be there for her.  What I learned is that she's  the worse lier.  She tried to distract me by dragging me to the Grill to fill me in on how she confessed to Tyler, she was a vampire. At least Caroline was smart enough not to mention the rest of us.  I often find humor in Caroline. Her clueless ways and the way she makes me laugh,  reminded me a lot of Lexi who was my best friend. Only Caroline was keeping me occupied because Elena was at the tomb, trying to get information out of Katherine. I was so mad at both of them that I couldn't see straight.

I found Elena standing in front of the open tomb door with a bag of supplies for Katherine. Trying to convince Elena that Katherine doesn't know how to tell the truth fell on deaf ears. Elena believed Katherine and seeing a weak Katherine at the door only made me more furious until she told us, Klaus murdered her entire family.  After I called her a manipulative, psychotic Bitch, Katherine fired back by telling me she was the safest psychotic Bitch in town. A vampire would be a fool to step foot in the tomb, knowing they could never come out. Elena was stunned, learing Klaus will not stop until she is dead and everyone is in danger. 

I took Elena home and she kept saying it's her fault. I tried to reassure her that I would protect her. The truth is I'm not sure I know how to protect her against someone who has so many years on me and who is a lot stronger.  As I've said, I will die trying.

"Blood and Love Don't Mix"

I’m sitting here in the quiet of the night reflecting on everything that happened today. Elena was kidnapped by not one but two 500 year-old vampires who seemed to think she held the key to their freedom. Jeremy alerted me at school that Elena’s bed was untouched with no traces of her anywhere.  We went to Bonnie for her help. This time she was less reluctant, showing genuine concern for her friend.  Bonnie used her witchcraft by placing droplets of Jeremy’s blood on a map, showing that Elena was 300 miles away from Mystic Falls. I went into protective boyfriend mode. Finding her became priority number one and in walks my brother.  He was also ready to find her.

The road trip with my brother was awkward to say the least. I tried to get his feelings for Elena out in the open but he wasn’t willing to budge. He can’t even admit that he’s in love with Elena. I’m really not sure how I feel about it but it’s something we as brothers will need to deal with before we end up at each other’s throats, like we did over Katherine. Elena has been good for Damon. I will be the first to admit that. Does it bother me? Yes, I would be lying if I said it doesn’t. What worries me is that Damon’s feelings go deeper than I could ever imagine and I’m not sure how to fight them.  It’s different from when he was obsessing over Katherine. I love Elena so much and it’s killing me to know that Damon’s love for her could be the end of us.  I could tell he was put off when I told him I was drinking small doses of Elena’s blood and fighting with my brother is pointless when at times I feel like I owe him. He wouldn’t be a vampire if it wasn’t for me. I had to apologize for my part in his misery.

We found Elena unharmed but Rose was scared of us or shall I say she was scared of Elijah. Being 500 years-old comes with a strength that Damon and I were not expecting to encounter. We put an end to Elijah, leaving him staked against a door. Elena’s safe and sound at home with her family. I wanted to stay with her. She quickly turned me away. Something happened a short while ago that has me worried. Rose was here. She said they will come for her. Rose said the originals, meaning Klaus who is extremely powerful and wicked. How will we protect her, now?

"Cursed By Love"

Every part of my body is enraged. Damon killed Mason. It had to be done, only Jenna paid the price by being compelled by Katherine to stab herself. I warned Damon not to provoke her. After he killed Mason, he used his phone to call Katherine. Taunting her with his words only made matters worse. How do we begin to fight her?

The pain I feel right now is killing me. Elena came to me to end things. I knew it was coming. We walked around pretending we were done but the whole time, Katherine had Jenna spying on us.  The Masquerade Ball was our one chance to trap Katherine. Alaric had all the necessities to take Katherine down and our team consisted of Bonnie, Jeremy, Caroline, Damon and myself.  We set the trap and all Katherine needed to do was take the bait. She brought her own witch to the party. Lucy was her name.

I danced with Katherine, only to be blind-sided when Aimee came over, thinking Katherine was Elena. Katherine killed her and left me to hide her body. An hour later, Caroline brought Katherine to the room where Damon and I hid.  I could tell my brother was fired up. He was blasting off wooden bullets left and right.  Damon was about to stake her until Jeremy ran in to warn us we were hurting, Elena.  Katherine had Lucy cast a spell to tie Elena to Katherine. I questioned Katherine on why the moonstone was so important to her when she gave it to George Lockwood in exchange for her freedom in 1864. Of course, Katherine was very evasive with her answers. Damon and I didn't learn anything new from her.

I should have never returned to Mystic Falls. I've made life a living hell for Elena, her family and her friends. My selfish behavior has ruined any chance of Elena having a normal life.  At the end of the Ball, Lucy tricked Katherine by placing a spell on the moonstone before handing it over to her. Katherine touched it, fell to the floor and was gasping for air.  Damon locked her in the tomb.  Hopefully, with her out the way, things for Elena can get back to normal.

The Vampire Diaries - Stefan Salvatore Journal

Here I am venting, again. I write my thoughts down to keep from going crazy. I came back to Mystic Falls to meet Elena. I had no idea that my return to Mystic Falls would be the worst decision I have ever made. If it wasn't for me, Damon would not have turned Vicki, killed the coach or killed countless others and to top it off, he is starting to have feelings for Elena. The moment I first saw Damon with her, I knew he would be trouble for our relationship. I tried to ignore what's happening before my very eyes and look the other way. I took his concern and feelings for Elena as a sign that Damon was learning how to care, again.  I didn't want Damon back in Mystic Falls. There would be nothing good about him being here and it turns out I was right.


What I didn't anticipate was Katherine's return or the fact that Mason Lockwood is a werewolf. This town doesn't need a stray animal on the loose. Damon is provoking him and it almost got us both killed. Not to mention that now I'm trying to help Caroline control her vampire urges. Another monkey wrench that came knocking at my door. I have to teach Caroline that she can live a semi-normal life. She freaked out on me when I told her that draining bunnies is better than intaking human blood.  Damon would disagree. 


Caroline proved to be quite useful when she saved Damon and I from her mother, Liz.   Sheriff Forbes was ready to send us to the gates of hell but we have Caroline to thank for rescuing us. That right there showed me how strong she is with human blood in her system. I'm starting to rethink my decision to not ingest human blood. I can't fight Katherine without it or Mason. Damon says  he has a plan to get rid of Katherine once and for all. He's  right! The bitch has to die.